Monday, October 26, 2009

Tarot - Saturday 2 Swords (24.10)



While the 2 of Swords in the Rider Waite deck stands for purposefully turning a blind eye on matters to keep the peace and thereby closing your heart and holding down your emotions, Crowley sees the 2 of Swords as Lord of Peace. Swords represent the mental world, the mind. The number two evokes polarity. So, balance is required, between the heart and mind. So, while the Rider Waite deck focuses on the difficulty of finding this balance resulting in doubt, the Toth deck emphasises on the balance coming from insight and making up conflicts and planning.

Of course the first conversation about an incident is not always enough, and a couple needs to then discuss what "rules" they ought to live by to preserve the peace between each other, discuss a plan of what each can expect from each other in a similar situation.That is exactly what we did, including Sunday for which I did not pull a day card.

For example, I want and understand that my boyfriend wants to meet people and start building his own network of friends. On the other hand we both would want to go out together too: nothing more pleasant than showing off your partner in the social world, certainly in the early stages of a relationship. But I also need to work in the week, and be well rested in order to be a just teacher. Another example: I'm used to invite friends over once in a while. So, I think he should be able to invite his new made friends over, even if I don't know them, even though it remains awkward as an idea because it is my apartment with my stuff (he's acting very responsible about it though). Or we make plans to visit my parents to do the laundry there, and one partner thinks we will stay over for dinner when invited, while the other wants to go back home.

The difficulty is finding a balance in all of this, and it does not always come naturally when both partners have lived on their own for years and are chronically used to do as they see fit for themselves.We're bound to make mistakes without intention, and need to find a way to set up a communication pattern that will avoid making such mistakes and gives the other person the most insight in each other's plans. 

Tarot - Friday Art (23.10)



Art is Crowley's Temperance, and illustrates the mixing of two opposites: fire with water and the lion with a griffon. The result is something steamy and passionate, and can tend to blow in our faces, so temperance is required in order to have a productive result rather than destructive. The angel in this card mixing the opposites holds a wand and a cup. Not only are these the Tarot symbols related to the elements of fire and water, but a wand is a symbol of the male aspect while a cup of the female aspect.

Friday was a day where I was confronted with my first irritations of suddenly having my partner living with me, something he had done that he shouldn't have, coupled with my worries over my finances. It's a small appartment and we are in some ways as different as night and day as well as both needing attention, spirited and extraverts. It can be a volatile combination if we were to think only of ourselves and would not have the maturity yet to express our needs, wants and frustrations in a loving way. Luckily we can argue in a manner that still expresses love. The potential of a fight was there on Friday, and yet we simply talked things over in a temperate and productive manner.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Tarot - Wednesday Hanged Man (21.10)



The Hanged Man is a Major Arcana card, where a man is hanging upside down in the position of a sacrifice. So, basically this card is about looking at an issue totally differently than before, and also about accepting that something needs to be sacrificed. It also warns that you give up resistance or a fight, and with some fatalistic attitude accept the situation as if you can't do anything about it, and so give up.

This is of course a feeling that has been building up over the past weeks with this financial worrying situation. I try to limit my expenses, gain some control over the situation but don't seem to succeed: something always tends to happen beyond my power the past half year and I'll literally have to pay for it. If I want to solve this I will have to look at other solutions than usual. And of course after the down of finding out that my financial situation still has not bettered a little, I naturally felt like the Hanged Man again.


Tarot - Thuesday Princess of Swords and 5 Disks



Crowley's Princess of Swords (aka Page of Swords) shows a young woman within a conflict situation. She's trying to keep her head (with a helmet reminiscent of wise Athena) above the dark upsetting clouds and ward off any unseen evil. The sword is pointed downwards. This can help to impact a coming blow, but clearly the Princess is not willing to strike first. Note how the dark clouds can only be seen underneath her own feet, suggesting that her worries that are the cause of her defensiveness may have been born in her mind alone without a material cause. She might just as well be fighting a depression. The sky around her and that which she tries to defend herself from is clear and light. Is there any real danger to be seen? Lastly, the Princess of Swords is alighted in a green colour, with green symbolizing "green of envy".

When I saw this card, I knew I was warned about me ending up feeling cornered and self-protective. So I drew another card to clarify in what area this conflict would expose itself. I drew the 5 of pentacles. 


This card is called Worry by Crowley, and as pentacles it signifies the cause of the worries is tangible, and very possibly material and financial. We see a reversed pentagram on this dark card: things are not going well. Nor is it a situation that is easily solved. All elements are involved and in a negative way. The card shows no rescue.

I knew then that the conflict would be about my financial situation, that has been a point of worry for quite some time. While I do have work (loads) and a healthy pay, I've run into some misfortunes with financial repercussions over the past months, and it all piles up one after the other. The past month I've been trying to at least stabilize the situation.

On Monday night, past midnight, and thus Thuesday, I checked my bank account and my attempt to turn the situation around has not yet come to pass. So, upcoming bills, how to fix the situations short term and long term, planning was running through my mind the whole day.

Tarot - Monday Knight of Cups (19.10)



Crowley's Knight of Cups does not correlate exactly to the Knight of Cups of the Rider Waite, because the Toth deck has no Kings in the Court cards. Crowley has princesses for pages, princes for knights, and knights for kings, while the queen remain queens. But that would not be totally correct either. I rarely see a court card as another person than the querent. Often I regard them as an attitude the querent has within a certain situation. Pages or princesses stand more for an opportunity to me, like the aces, with that difference that usually the opportunities of the aces are born from within, while the opportunities of the pages come from outside ourselves, coming from a person. The RW knights and Crowley's princes tend to stand for an environment and climate rather than just one person. This leaves only the queens and kings (or Crowley's knights) to represent actual concrete people.

So, according to the card for past Monday (that I drew on Saturday 17 October) the issue of that day involved a man in a romantic sense. The Knight of Cups is like a romantic ideal, the knight in shining armour, who'll fly to other worlds to pamper you with his feelings for you, driven by his impulses. In my case this was very literal. My Nicaraguan boyfriend had his flight from Costa Rica to Germany on Monday in order to come and live with me for the next three months.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Tarot - Sunday Moon (18.10)

Because I am trying to gain extra insights in the Tarot cards on a symbolical level, I laid 7 cards for the whole of the week with my Crowley's Toth Deck.

Sunday 18 October 2009 was a Moon day in the spread I laid on Saturday 17 October.



The Moon is not the everyday realm. It is the world at night, in the dark, when we fear what roams outside, and when the world becomes incoherent and dreamy instead. When the moon is up, and we sleep and dream, we may end up having to confront our worst fears in nightmares, or live out our deepest sexual desires we would like noone else to know.

The Toth card version emphasises the feminine intuition: at the bottom we can see a depiction of a woman's hormonal cycle, which used to be called "moontimes" because of their cyclic nature similar to that of the moon. More importantly a woman's moon cycle implies fertility, and the image of the Toth card makes it appear as if a woman's eggcell is about to be released or fertilized. Also the light path from sun to moon, the cone in the sky of alighted sky, resembles the womb of a woman, and in the moon's darkened side we see strings of DNA intertwine.

What is different in the Toth card from the Rider Waite aspect is that here Crowley wanted to reveal that soon the sun will rise once more, daytime will come again, with the Scarabee pushing the sun up just right underneath the horizon. And it looks as if the moon and the sun together are lighting a path for the reader. And the only crescent moon you see so close before sunrise is the waning moon.

While Anubis guards the entry of the Moon's realm (and in Egyptian mythology Toth was the Moon God), the towers rise high and ominous, the waning moon lures us to wonder on the weird and crazy looking world of the dream for inspiration, which is indeed most likely to be recalled if early in the morning rather than the middle of the night.

We can see yods fall from the Moon to the Sun. The Hebrew word yod means "hand" or "helping" hand. So it suggests that this card may lend a helping hand to get through your fears and worries via your dreams.

What did the card mean in relation to Saturday 17th of October? Was I worried? Or anxious? Did I had a great insight from a dream? None of it all. But I did hours of research and writing on the blog articles about dreams and what happens in our brain neurologically when we dream. So, yes, Saturday was a Moon day because dreams were the topic of that day, and it helped me to learn why dreams are as they are.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Paranormal dreams

Some people might wonder, "Ok, so most dreams are symbolical representations of my emotional issues with myself or something that happened to me in the past week. But can I not have had a precognition dream?"

Well research has been performed in scietifically controlled environments by Ullman, Krippner and Vaughan regarding telepathic influencing of a dream as well as precognitive dreams. They discussed the results in the book Dream Telepathy. Also you can read the research done in those studies in how much an agent could telepathically influence the dreams of a sleeping test subject, by picking out an image or painting and concentrating on it: Dream Telepathy Experimental and Clinical Findings. Krippner himself relates in an article the findings of their telepathy research, including The Grateful Dead helping to have an audience of 2000 people trying to telepathically send an image to a sleeping subject in the research center for 6 nights in a row: a pilot study in dream telepathy with the grateful dead While there were of course plenty of failures, Child (1985) concluded that the hits were significant enough not to be ascribed to chance, and challenged critics of ESP to find fault in the experiment to ascribe and explain the amount of hits.

Krippner is professor in psychology and has performed plenty of studies regarding dreams, hypnosis and trance in tests aimed to make scientific findings on these. And according to him there are
  • collective dreams
 Two persons report having had the same or similar dream on the same night. Krippner cites such a report about 2 people having dreamt about a hotel lobby with unique pillars.
  • telepathic dreams
Whereby people send information telepathically to the dreamer. Note however, that in the experiments described above, the dreaming subject might have dreamed of elements corresponding to the image telephatically sent to the, they were incorporated symbolically in the dreams just like other sensory input is when dreaming. They did not become the subject of the dream, just part of the symbols used.
  • clairvoyant dreams - perceiving distant events
  • precognitive dreams 
Meaning providing information about an event that has not yet occurred. Research was done along with telepathic dreams at Maimonides Medical Center and it showed it can occur. I myself do not need to be convinced it can occur. While my own anecdotal experience cannot count as scientific data and evidence, I have had two dreams that would fall under this category. The first was a confirmation what I decided to have faith in, the second revealed the impact a certain relationship would have on me, before I even considered the person in question in that light.

However, a precognitive dream does not need to be a clairvoyant dream. Some are coincidental, others are inferential (as is the above personal example) and based on the dreamer putting data together intuitively that result in a succesful prediction of a forthcoming event. Some are self-fulfilling prophecies (and the next personal example can be seen in that way). Then there is of course the possibilty that some reports are pure lies. And the last category is apparently anomalous because at the time there was neither unconscious or conscious information that can explain the accuracy of the prediction.  

Even if a precognitive dream occurs, the upcoming event will be shown in a symbolical story, not literally, and it predicts but a short time ahead. This makes it often very hard to distinguish the precognitive dream from a normal dream. The only way I realized these dreams were precognitive was because I woke up in shock or surprise and instantly consciously understood the dream was precognitive with a certainty I could not reason away. Because it is so hard to distinguish precognition dreams from normal dreams because of both featuring symbolical language, it is therefore hard to avoid the predicted event if you wish it. However, Krippner et. al. report that 69% of people were succesful in preventing the foreseen event.

So, how do you make sure that a dream is not just a wishing-dream or a precognitive dream? Well, you cannot make sure of it in an empirical way unless after reality caught up with the precognitive dream. But Krippner mentions that usually most people had an intuitive hunch when waking up it was not a usual dream, but a precognitive one. My own two anecdotal dreams describe a similar intuitive hunch. I just "knew" as I woke up, whereas otherwise the thought would never even come to mind, nor am I seeking to get more of them. 

My guideline is that if you feel "hope" (including the hope that you may have a precognitive dream that will prove what special powers you have) and "enjoyment" when waking up, then the dream is a wish dream, and not precognitive. If instead you wake up startled with a surety and yet scepticism that this is just crazy, then chances are you might indeed have had a precognition dream.
  • past life dreams - which "appear" to have detail events in a past life we have no way of knowing about 
  • spiritual dreams - whereby we are visited by spirits, deities or those from the other side 
Any evidence of these two is purely anecdotal or non physical and therefore not admissable within scientific conclusions. Alas, what people see as images during regression hypnosis (with often highly suggestive leading questions) and in their dreams is not physical evidence. Sceptics do try to research the details mentioned in such scenes to check them for veracity, without much success at all. For example the search for Briday Murphy: www.straightdope.com Certainly past life experiences in dreams lack verifiable details, or at the most suggestive. Eventually past life experiences in such cases often rely solely on the credibility of the person who believes they experienced a previous life.

So far the only person who researched reincarnation cases without regressive hypnosis, has been Dr. Stephenson. He studied the cases of children between two and four who claimed they remembered their past lives. He tried to verify the details, including mole marks on the newborn as leftovers of damage done to the body of the supposed previous life. Stephenson stipulated that his study did not provide evidence of reincarnation, but at least was suggestive of it. His work got published in peer reviewed journals. Carl Sagan, a renowned atheist and astronomer, agreed that Stephenson's work is a scientifically enough valid research to lay the foundation to study it more. Meanwhile philosopher Paul Edwards who peer reviewed Stephenson's research called it anecdotal and biased in the sense that most of Stephenson's study cases come from cultures in Asia where reincarnation is generally believed .


Even, from a philosophical point of view, if we do have past lives they are irrelevant to the present life. Past life dreams and supernatural dreams then ought to be treated just like any other dream: conveying a symbolical message on how to solve an issue with yourself or a recent event in your life that had an emotional impact on you. This is furthermore supported by the fact that even scientifically researched and pilot tested clairvoyant, precognitive and telephathic dreams remain to be represented symbolically in dreams. As we have seen there are neurological reasons for it. When we dream the centers that correlate to a coherent real world and language with which to identify real world characters, objects and environment - whether from the past, present or future - are turned off.

While there is no evidence, nor even grounds to believe either dreams to be truthful about past lives and the supernatural, that does not mean they are not useful. They can indeed help someone to solve a present, real life issue, and very soothing and pelasing. While there are no rational reasons to believe, there is every bit of reason to enjoy them (that is if they were enjoable).
  • out-of-body - the sensation of leaving the body and able to see the surroundings and object
These experiences often are very much comparable to Near Death Experiences. Work has been done to substantiate that the phenomenon occurs, but little is known of how it works. Is it a true separation? Or another form of telephatic experience? Krippner reports it occurrs in all cultures. La Berge indicates it occurs at sleep onset. A theory has tried to explain it as becoming fully conscious, and yet still be sleep paralized, and so create an out of body experience. However,  it does not explain labaratory reports where a subject perceived objects while in this state, while he could never see the target from the location of his physical body. 

source: science of dreaming
further reading:
Extraordinary dreams and how to work with them

Sunday, October 18, 2009

The content purpose of a dream

Ok, so dreaming is important for learning tasks, integrating personal experiences, training your brain and be a coherent person in the waking life. It's also clear that the impulses come from within. External stimuli are shut out, and even if they pass the barrier they end up incorporated in the dream, but they are not driving the plot. Meanwhile we forget most of our dreams and the majority of those we recall we forget about within a few minutes even. We recall but an incredible low amount of them. It doesn't even seem that we are supposed to remember dreams, since the memory that stores them is shut down in the brain while dreaming. If we are not meant to remember, is the content even important to us in our waking life? Why even bother translating them?

Well let us examine closer what neurologically happens in our brain when we dream. Perhaps it can give us a better insight.

DREAMS CAUSED BY EMOTIONS  IN SYMBOLICAL LANGUAGE

dreaming brain

This drawing is based on an updated version of Hobson, and information from Schwart and Maquet. The brainparts A, B, C, D, and E in pink are those that are only partially active: they block input or output for example. 1 to 9 are active in dream sleep.
  1. Pontine stem
  2. Thalamus
  3. RT hypothalamus
  4. Amygdala, lymbic and paralymbic
  5. anterior cingulate
  6. basic ganglia
  7. visual association cortex
  8. right inferior parietal cortex
  9. cerebellum
  • A - Dorsolateral prefrontal cortex
  • B - Posterior cyngulate gyrus and precuneus
  • C - Primary motor cortex
  • D - primary somatosensory cortex
  • E - primary visual cortex

So what are they and what is the consequence? Let us first look at what gets shut out or turned off.

First there is a group of centers that isolate us physically from our external surrindings. With C off our body is paralyzed during the dream. With D and E the input senses get disconnected, and hardly an external sensory input gets through. This makes sure we do not get disturbed while we dream, nor break our neck. It also prevents that a real life stimulus might be mistakenly identified in the dream as a symbol of importance.

Next there is a group that makes sure we do not even connect to the outside world in memory and inner perception. We do not just shut out the physical world, we also shut off the memory of the real rational world. It's as if we pull the plug on the rational inside of ourselves. A normally helps to construct our perception of a rational world. When it's turned off we lose our will and reflective awareness. Hence, our ego becomes but one of the many characters in the dream plot. Without will and reflective awareness, we undergo the dream experience without even considering to take matters in our own hands. The dream will lack a coherent connection to the waking life, and we accept the bizarre and irrational without any reserves.
B too belongs to an area that helps us shut off the inner memory of the rational world. Normally it helps us recall and process visual or episodic memory. Turned off, sudden scene changes are perceived as normal. But most importantly it prevents the real life situations that led to the dream to be represented in the dream in the way they actually happened.You may still be dreaming about an issue of your waking life, but it won't be represented like that particular situation from your memory.

The last group, the blue area that gets completely shut off in the left brain hemisphere, shuts out the literal meanings out of our dreams, and instead is the reason why dream elements are symbols instead of real life references. For one, we end up having a hard time distinguishing between ourselves and the perspective of others. We may end up seeing ourselves as a stranger as self at the same time. We cannot identify and name things as what they are in our everyday life, so the imagery we see does not represent the same thing as in real life. Both these blocked area make it why your mother in a dream does not refer to your real mother, but to the mother character that lives in your pshyche; or that your best friend  in your dream is a personificatoin of the qualities you project on her or him in your waking life. It means that the image-language of the dreams is a language of symbols, metaphors, association and pictographs.
And that is one of the reasons why it is so important to shut down sensory input. If we are dreaming about symbols and some real life input gets through which is not a symbol at all, we might mistakenly take it for a symbol.

If we look at all the centers that get activated they fit with what we already can conclude of the parts of the brain that get shut off. 1 and 2 are involved with REM sleep and sleep cycle control, and they tell other parts of the brain to pay attention to what is coming. As a consequence of both you are conscious when you dream. You sleep and have no awareness of the outside world, but you are aware of the dream.

Then there is a group that helps to enhance the perception that the dream is somethign we are really experiencing. 6 and 9 make sure that you perceive yourself as moving in the dream and have bodily senses. 

A third group is related to the cause of the dream. 3, 4 and 5 make that the content is emotionally related: things we desire or have a deep fear for, emotional memories that are the cause of the dream. Our emotions in the dream are not just a response to the images. It is thought to be the reverse. Our emotions are the cause of the dream and end up being translated into a story to integrate our anxiety, fears and desires. 5 produces dramatizations that can portray our conceptual waking concerns, focuses on what in our waking life causes friction between ourselves and the waking world, and hints at how to take action to solve the anomaly.  

The last group deals with the emotional symbolical language of the dream. 7 processes visual content derived from emotional information, and uses the associations stored in our memory, while 8 gets to work to perceive an imagery dreamspace with symbolical imagery, and makes meaning out of the metaphors in narrative descriptions.

summary


So, we can conclude that a dream originates from within. We are conscious in a dream (but not in a way as you are in the waking world, because you lack rational connection), that is we perceive we are awake in a world that is not obligated to be coherent as in real life to get its point across.

Time and linear logic is of no meaning. The dream therefore can approach a theme from different angles, spaces and point of views until it finds a workable solution.

You have no will in the dream. Therefore we hardly ever come up with the idea to control our actions or even the dream itself. Only lucid dreaming (where we realize that we are actually dreaming and not awake) is a possible exception to it. Those are the dreams where we might think of taking control over our dream actions, but it is rarely total and often lasts for only a short time. It is to the dreamwork's benefit that we do not realize our ego could start to control the dream plot. It helps all the characters - who represent feelings, beliefs, fragments of our personality, threatening emotional memories - to act freely and express their nature without us inhibiting them.

While dreams may be bizarre to the waking mind, it may be quite coherent in a symbolical and hollistic sense. A dream translation can show exactly how logical and coherent a dream can really be.

The one thing that never ends up being bizarre when waking up are the emotions in the dream, and it seems more and more likely that it are emotions that drive the plot. The forebrain responds to these emotions by associating them with images to comprehend the emotional impulses.

Dreams deal with daily life events, but omit the real life event from the dream itself. 

GUIDELINES TO UNDERSTAND THE DREAM CONTENT

From all the above follows that
  1. We cannot take a dream literally, almost never, but have to see every character, item and environment as a symbol. Even real life issues cannot be accurately represented as they are in real life. Nothing in the dream is what it is in the waking life. It does not matter whether you watched Alien on the television that week or not. Alien on the television is not what sparked the dream. It is but a symbol used in your dream. Not even words, spoken or written, are to be taken literal and rationally, but symbolically.
  2. The dream has a major theme, and repeats it from several angles. Therefore a dream is not a linear story of cause and effect, but several attempts to tackle the same issue over and over until you get it right. That is usually where the dream ends.
  3. In the dreamworld ever character ends up being a representation of a part of ourselves, free to do what is in their nature to do. In the waking world we can try to ignore them, bury them, hide them from ourselves. But we cannot in the dream.
  4. There is a symbolical coherency and logic in the dream, even though there is no real life coherency or linear logic
  5. Emotions seem to drive the plot. The associations and symbols in a dream therefore represent our emotional world. Our emotions are at the chore of the symbolical language.
  6. There is a central image, a theme, that stands out, which is related to the strongest emotion in the dream.
  7. The symbolical pertains associations (including loose ones), metaphors, puns. Objects and characters are not identified by its correct name (left hemisphere) but why their function and purpose. A "fork" becomes "something we eat with".
  8. The dream is about a real life issue, but omits the event itself. Only the emotions, some charachters and actions may be present as fragments in the dream. This may be because the dream wants to resolve the emotional impact the event had, rather than the event itself.
  9. The issue is a recent event, rarely older than a week. 
  10. Dreams are about yourself, about unresolved parts of yourself against other self parts, about yourself in relation to your environment, and mostly how to resolve any anomaly within yourself. 
  11. Because dreams seem to wish to resolve problems, it also includes foreseeable problems, and the dream may end up being foreward looking and predictive.
  12. We are aware of feelings and thoughts of other characters in a dream. This may be to prepare us for social encounters in the waking world.
source: The Science of Dreaming

    A short overview of dream science

    Definition: mental activity occuring in sleep.

    Duh? The above defintions seems a no-brainer, because it's so general and wide. Wwhat type of mental activity do they mean for example?

    TYPES OF MENTAL ACTIVITY
    1. illusionary internal bodily sensations as you just have fallen asleep: for example you can feel as if paralyzed and unable to move, or slowly gliding down as if into water, or as if falling and have a jerking reaction (waking you up too). None of these are accompanied with images. Some of this may be caused by  the physical activities during the day, like going out on a boat trip for example. 
    2. pure thoughts: you have an exam the next day, and fall asleep still thinking of it, and your sleep gives you no escape from these thoughts. They go on and on, often waking you up early in the night. Aside from thoughts the only thing accompanying it are emotions. 
    3. visual plots: this is what we often associate with dreams. It's a full blown story, with images, events, dramatic, comples, bizarre, hallucinatory. You live in a house that you accept to be your house, but in reality your house is somewhere else and looks different. Your friends are there, but don't actually look as they do in real life. First you are at one place, and next you are someplace different without pre-warnings of the change of scenery. You do things you never even imagined doing, or might not even be possible in real life. And you encounter creatures you would never believe to exist. You have conversations, hear phones ring, run, touch things - all your sensitory neurons are active and sensing a physical world that simply does not exist. And lastly your emotions are alive almost constantly. Despite its total lack of logic and coherency, despite it contradicting reality, you accept the events and experiences as normal, until you wake up.
    The first two are obviously related to daytime experiences, or effects of the body and mind falling asleep. But the last one is a whole different ballgame. Obviously it is the most active one, and thus the brain must be more active than during the previous two. And yet we would expect that if our brain is more active we would be more coherent, that details would be more exact and that we act more logically. But we do not.

    So, what is going on then? As it turns out, chemical changes in the brain and selective brain deactivation enhance and shut down certain mental functions.

    EVERYBODY DREAMS

    Everybody's brain ever studied while asleep is active during sleep, and are accompanied by rapid eye movement (hence REM sleep). When the subjects were awakened during these REM-sleep phases on average 82% of the people reported they had been dreaming. This is why scientists assume everybody dreams. If you think you do not dream, then this is attributed to the not being able to recall your dreams. When people sleep through the REM-sleep, and do not wake up at the moment of dreaming (if only for a few seconds), it is very hard on anyone to ever recall them. Even when you recall dreaming as you wake up, the dream often soon fades into forgetfulness.

    The reason why it is so hard to recall a dream is because the chemical systems responsible for recent memory get turned off during sleep brain activity. In other words, your short term memory gets shut down, and unless you wake up which will reactivate the short term memory you will not remember your dream. 


    WHEN IN OUR SLEEP DO WE DREAM

    Previously it was thought that we only dream during the REM-sleep. However, the dreamlike state and dream has been shown to occur during sleep-onset and NREM-sleep as well as REM sleep. Sleep-onset shows type 1 mental activity. Non-REM sleep or low wave sleep early on in the night can include type 2 mental activity, whereas type 3  (the most active of the 3) typically occurs during REM-sleep.And while the REM-sleep dreams are more vivid and have more emotional impact, we dream as much dreams during NREM than during REM sleep. We go through four sleep cycles alternating NREM-sleep with REM-sleep. NREM-sleep typically belongs to stage 3 and stage 4 of the drop in brain activity. In total we go through 4-6 dreams in eight hours of sleep, with each sleep cycle taking approximately 90 minutes. So, we basically dream throughout the whole of the night. Only the type of dreams will differ.

    Sleep Cycle chart


    Most body activity lowers to the minimum in a stage 4 NREM-sleep and it will be hard to wake us. During REM-sleep there is a lot of small facial movement, eye movement, faster pulse and breathing, and yet we are unable to move, but easily woken up.

    WHAT PART OF THE BRAIN IS ACTIVE

    During NREM-sleep the lower half of the brainstem connected to the spinal cord regulates autonomic functions of our body: breathing, blood pressure and swallowing. In other words, while everything of our body gets a rest, de medulla makes sure we function minimally and thus stay alive.

    REM-sleep is accompanied with activity from the pontine brainstem which causes other parts of the brain to become extremely active, as active as during waking life or even more: these include visual, action and emotional reaction. However this activation of the brain parts that deal with the visual, action and emotional has been shown to be the result of random pontine activity.

    Aside from that, several of the parts in the brain responsible for different type of memories are active in different stages of the sleep: the hippocampus for personal situation and event memories, another for task learning. The only one that does not seem to be active is the short term memory that would help to remember the dream itself.

    Other brain parts get to be "deactivated" during dream stages. For example whatever you feel you're motorically doing in a dream, the actions you take hae no output. So, you can dream that you are running, but your legs won't be moving in reality. There are exceptions of course, like sleepwalking or sleeptalking (the more tired I am the more I will sleeptalk). Meanwhile the sensory input signals are shut out as well. What you see and hear happens solely in your mind. Someone touching you or splashing water on you for example has the most chance (42%) of getting through and weave its way into the dream, wheares flashing lights only have 23% chance in getting through. Sound only has a 9% chance.  

    HOBSON'S ACTIVATION-SYNTHESIS THEORY (1994)

    The frontal brain seems to react to the high level of random inner brain impulses by combining it into something that is at least semi-coherent. These findings led Hobson and McCarley to theorize in the Activation-synthesis theory that our frontal lobe invents or imposes a story out of the random noise (emotions, visual and auditory hallucinations) of the brain actvity during REM-sleep, because even in our sleep our mind is hell-bent on finding meaning in the random firing of neurons (see also how does tarot work - serendipity). Because the impulses are so random the brain cannot totally turn it into something coherent, hence we end up remembering bizar dreams where we hop from event and scene into the other.

    However, they exaggerated the bizarreness of dreams. While dreams can be bizarre, at least some of those we do recall, many reported dreams in sleep studies where subjects were woken up are not as bizarre. Secondly, studies done by Solms showed that only with brain damage to the frontal lobe did dreams cease even if the pontine was still intact, yet 25 out of 26 subjects with lesions on the pontine brainstem seemed to be dreaming still.

    REPAIRING THE BODY


    If people deprive themselves of dream or REM sleep, the first thing the body will do is increase the dream sleep, recovering the loss of REM sleep almost precisely to a T. So, dreaming must be important. Long term sleep deprivation will lead to observed waking dreams, interference with memory and learning, difficulties to focus, haing a hard time to maintain a straight line of thought. Dreaming at the least seems important for our general daily well being.

    When I studied for my Master in Industrial Design, I often needed to hand in or present innovative projects before a jury, often requiring at least 24 hours to stay up before the deadline. One time, I had to do several alterations to my design a week before the deadline, and I still had to make my mock-up, visual presentations and written report. Eventually I stayed up for 74 hours. I had been up for 3 days and 2 nights when I handed it in, and it took several hours before I finally got home again and could just lie on the couch.

    The last 10 hours before going to university to deliver my project, it became harder and harder to do anything efficiently. Luckily I only needed to do a little bit of this and a little bit of that, but it took a lot of time to accomplish even the simplest of tasks. And by the morning, I found myself having waking dreams while I totally forgot what I was doing. When I wanted to call a cab to get me to university, I had to give up trying to find the phone number or even dial it. Instead I had to somebody else to make the phone call for me. And once I got home and laid on the couch, I was having whole sleep convesations for hours. Luckily for me I had not ot perform in front of a jury for that particular project. 

    One could argue it was not the smartest thing to stay up for so long, but I had been awake already for more than 48 hours and feared that if I went to bed, I would never get up in time again to finish the job. My mother was so freaked out by my incoherent, stumbling behaviour those last hours that she made me promise to never ever do that again. What was even more amazing was that just one night of eight hours sleep was enough to recover from it all.

    MEMORY REHEARSALS AND LEARNING


    As the evidence made clear that the Activation-Synthesis theory fails to explain dream elements contradictory to what the theory predicted, Hobson came out with a new finding. Based on the brain wave activity in the hippocampus, of which one of the functions has been proven to be helping to store and revive recent memories related to our personal lives in the cortex (long term memory).

    Neurons tend fo follow a path, much like a farmer plows the earth. It takes time and several plowings in order to make the path into a pattern. New experiences though may provoke neurons to become associated with other neurons not included in the previous brain pattern. But these new connections can easily fade away. Similary, if the farmer wants to plow new paths on his land, he will experience that his plow tends to slide back into the old track. So, these new connections need to be run down several times before assuring they will not fade away.

    A dream sleep study with rats showed that the same neural path was activated during their dream sleep after they had learned a new maze to run. And researchers at the Weizman Institute, Israel, found that constant interrupting of dream sleep completely blocked learning, while interrupting non dream sleep had no such result. Subjects who learned a new task in the evening and had a good night's sleep were significantly faster and more accurate at the task afterwards.

    Even one dream can show the dreamer having to solve a theme, repetitively, but each time from a different angle, or a bit differently. It's as if the brain is rehearsing and trying to find neuron paths that work and then strengthening the best neuron way.


    RECALLING DREAMS

    It is strange that if we dream at least four times a night, we recall so little of them. As already explained Hobson found out that the short memory storage center gets to have a rest, unless we are woken up. So, waking up during REM sleep enhances the chance to recall a dream. The most extensive dreams occur in the morning because our sleep is lighter and we wake up more easily. So, while not yet clearly established it is possible that the more hours we sleep the higher the chance we have to recall a dream. The ability to remember a dream spontaneously seems to be enhanced by factors such as how much we want to recall a dream and how important we think dreams are in general. If you are more interested in recalling a particular dream on a particular night you are more likely to do so. And the more visually creative you are, the more likely you will recall dreams.

    Studies that showed this were done by Schechter, Schmeidler and Staal (1965) and review cited by Lynn Hoss. They compared recall ability between art, science and engineer students. Art students recalled significantly more dreams, and engineer sutdents the least. This is attributed to art students using the right-brain hemishpere more, whereas engineers use the linear leftbrain hemisphere the most.

    Aside from creativity and ability to memorize visually, openness to experience and tolerance to ambiguity seem to help people recall their dreams more spontaneously.

    So, if you find you don't recall any of your dreams try to sleep enough hours each night so the chances increase you wake up in one of the last REM sleep phases, train your visual memory, take an art class or do something visually creative or go to a musem and appreciate visual art, and gain an attitude to be open to the unpredictable experiences, and learn that problems may have several solutions with their benefits and downsides.

    WHAT DO WE DREAM

    We dream in color, but because of recall difficulties tend to forget the colours. Type 3 dreams are dominated by the visual experience (close to 100%) and sound (40 to 60%). Movement and touch is less frequent (15-30%) and smell and taste is almost totally absent (less than 1%). Emotions intensify with the progress of the dream.

    sources:
    science of dreaming (excerpts from Robert Hoss' "Dream language: self understanding through imagery and colour")
    chapter 1: what is dreaming, by Alan Hobson, "Dreaming, a very short introduction"

    Saturday, October 17, 2009

    Dream Translation requests

    You had a dream that stuck in your mind and left an emotional impact, but you're stumped what your mind is trying to make you see or learn. Dreams are a symbolical message from yourself about the effect the waking life has on you, or how you respond to the world, or what is going on within yourself. There are plenty of dream dictionaries to be found on the internet to try and solve the dream riddle by yourself, but you have no clue which meaning to pick and how to relate them to the other symbols in your dream. Well I can help you to make more sense out of it, for I have a talent in association, seeing repetitive but alternate symbols about the same theme or message. 

    Rules I abide by
    - maximum of two free dream translations per month per person
    - you must be at least 18, because readings done for minors is sometimes illegal depending where you live
    - I do not translate dreams for a third party, only yourself

    How to request for a dream translation
    1° become a member of this blog (necessary for step 2)
    2° post your dream translation request as a comment in this thread
    3° describe the dream in as much detail as you can remember, including emotions
    4° include date of birth, name and location

    What to expect
    An insight into yourself. Dreams are messages from yourself to yourself about yourself.

    Tarot reading requests

    If you have a Tarot reading request, you may ask for it here. I will do one reading per person for free once a month. And it may take some time once in a while before I respond to a request, for the simple reason that I'm doing this in my free time, and my free time is limited or variable depending on the amount of work I have.

    There are a few rules I abide by
    - only one request a month per person
    - you may not be younger than 18, because this is illegal in some countries
    - I do not perform readings for a third party, only yourself, because I respect another's privacy
    - No "yes/no" questions. Do not let the cards or me make decisions for you. It is important to make your own choices in life. Please rephrase the question so it can allow for gaining understanding in your options, and to empower yourself to recognize which choices you feel you need to make.
    - No "health" questions. If you are concerned about your health (mental or physical), go see a doctor! 

    How to request a reading
    1° become a member of this blog (necessary for step 2)
    2° post the request as a comment on this article
    3° describe the area of your request or write the question for your reading. TIP: start your question with how/what/why.
    4° include your birth date, name and location

    What to expect
    I choose the spread that will fit your request, and might reword the question within the possibilities of Tarot reading. I cannot give you precise when/who/what answers: no dates, no names, no descriptions of looks, no particular places. This is just impossible, and I explain this in "how does tarot work".
    For readings I use either the Rider Waite deck or Crowley's Toth deck.

    How does Tarot work - serendipity

    If you ever had a Tarot reading done you may be surprised how accurate it may have been. How could those cards know what your life was/is/will be like. What supernatural mindreading abilities do these Tarot cards have? How do they make sure they are where they are in the shuffled deck to make sure they are picked?

    Tarot cards are not magical; they do not mindread; they do not will themselves at the right place, nor is some invisible hand of a higher power interfering for the human to pick them: that is, there is no factual evidence to think of them otherwise as inanimated objects with beautiful pictures on it that are as randomly picked and shuffled as cards in a game of poker. As a matter of fact, you don't need Tarot cards to do a reading. You could use a normal card deck just as well (or any other system that relies on chance and randomnness), and as succesfully.

    And yet they work! They even work over distance, like on the internet. How is that possible? There is one beautiful, but one of the least understood words that explains this - serendipity.





    SERENDIPITY

    Definition: to make meaning out of several random events into a big picture of valuable insight.

    Serendip used to be the Persian name for Sri Lanka, and Horace Walpole created the word serendipity out of the old name for Sri Lanka in 1754 to describe the phenomenon where people encounter random information by chance and yet relate it to another piece of information and come to a whole new understanding. A famous example would be Archimedes' discovery when he lowered himself into his baththub and realized this is how he could measure the volume of an irregular object, such as a crown. 

    Horace Walpole based the concept of serendipity on a story of three princes of Serendip who made a journey through their country. On their travels they made several random and unrelated discoveries. One such observation was the grass next to the road being shorter on the left side of the road. Another discovery, much later on, was a camel* and how he was blind to the right eye. The prince deduced that the camel must have come down the same way as them and because he was blind to his right eye had only eaten from the left side of the road.**

    While not every scientist or creative mind may want to admit to the fact that their discovery or invention relied on some chance event, it is the foundation of a majority of them.*** When posed with a problem that needs a solution, the search is often started with a brainstorm session. One of the most important rules when brainstorming is not to judge an idea, no matter how ridiculous. When people brainstorm they gather all sorts of unrelated information out of their mind and recombine it into one. A brainstorm therefore is a serendipity enhancing process.

    Serendipity processes are characterized by:
    • random unrelated information
    • following a path/process plan
    • relating the random information into a big picture with meaning and importance in cause and effect order of the path

    And that is exactly what Tarot readings do.

    TAROT'S SERENDIPITY

    A Tarot reading starts with shuffling seventy eight cards with the blind side up. The cards will be cut, randomly picked and distributed and then turned with the image up. Statistically the first card has one chance out of seventy eight to be picked, the second card has one chance out of seventy seven to be picked, the third one chance out of seventy six. We cannot have a more randomized process than this. And there is no reason to assume that it is any less random and following the rules of statistics than when dealing cards during a poker game.

    From the random process follows that each picked card is strictly speaking unrelated to the others. And yet a meaning is attributed to each card nevertheless. Like the story of the three princes recounts the discovery of shorter grass on the left side, and another discovery of the existence of a mule or camel blind at the right eye.

    The picked cards are laid in a spread. It might be a row, or a square or a Celtic cross, where one card is the first, another is the second, yet another the third, and so no. When the reading is performed the reader will follow the order of the spread. In fact he reads according to the path laid out before him - a journey like the three princes of Serendip.

    The encounter of the random card of information at its specific order of the spread is unified into an adapted meaning. And finally the unrelated individual meanings are then unified into a bigger picture to reveal some new insight of a problem.

    So, Tarot reading has all the features of a serendipity process.

    HOW SERENDIPITY CAN BE SUCCESFUL

    I've shown what the serendipity process entails, how Tarot reading is such a serendipity process, and I mentioned that in sciences and technology serendipity is a major ingredient to finding a succesful solution or insight to a problem.

    It works because the human mind is prone to make meaning out of things. We need only a few white dots on a black screen background moving across the screen to think it's a human walking. Children see figures of strange creatures in the paint drippings or unevenness in the walls next to your bed. And of course the star constellations are some of the best examples of this mind trick. And just like we do it with watermarkings on the wallpaper, we also tend to do it with life events. The more random events are, the more this habbit of giving meaning will kick.

    This mind ability and focus on giving meaning to coincidences probably stems from a survival benefit. When life is going as expected and according to plan then the occurring events do not require our special attention. But when something shows up unexpectedly, like a carnivorous animal prowling on us, then we must be on the alert. We can never predict which dangerous animal may show up on the prairy, let alone predict at which precise moment. So, in order to survive on the savannah our ancestors' minds needed to be able to kick in  alert status to the unusual, the unpredictable at the least sign of it - noise or other change in environment. Chance coincidences are by definition the most unpredictable and always take us by surprise, but our mind instantly will focus on this possible unknown, and give it a higher importance than the known and usual. Our mind thus needs to be attracted by the coincidental. Next, we give a certain meaning to it, relate and associate it with other features of our life in order to assess how it possibly may impact our lives, and we need to do this almost instantly.

    So, when something totally unexpected (coincidental) occurss we give it all of our attention and instantly try to relate it on how it may impact us. If we didn't do this we would never have survived the African savannah as bands.

    Just like our minds tend to make meaning out of randomness, even if things can not be factually related, we also tend to be selective in only remembering and looking for what we can relate. Ever went through a holiday brochure, not knowing beforehand which trip you would be doing? But once you picked one, then all of a sudden the place is mentioned on the news, in papers, by chance you meet someone who tells you stories about the place, etc... It seems too much of a coincidence to be a coincidence anymore.

    Well, it isn't coincidence. That holiday destination was in the news before and you probably met people who went there before you, or know someone who went there. The only difference to before and after is you yourself: you notice the references, whereas you did not before. And of course you notice them, because what was meaningless to you before and therefore worth forgetting, now does have meaning to you.

    As we developed this ability of focus on coincidences, humans expanded it to not just the question of cause and effect with "How may this unexpected prowler disrupt my life?". They expanded it to making the most out of coincidences. Imagine an ancestor cracking a nut by laying it on a rock surface and slamming it with another rock. At some point the rock surface would end up being chipped off with a sharp cut which results in the ancestor cutting his or her finger. With a mind prone to make meaning out of this unfortunate accident and prone to focus on its unexpectedness, we can easily see how the ancestor would discover the benefit in the event. And instead of cracking nuts for the next few hours, all of a sudden the ancestor is hitting rocks against rocks until he finds the right angle and the right rock material to create a knife. During this process his band members who see him at it may think him crazy for hitting rocks together without any direct benefit of being able to eat nuts, until they get to the river and he uses that sharp edged rock to cut up the fish he caught. 

    So, we do not just have a mind prone to pay attention to coincidences, to make them important and relate their impact on our lives, but also to selectively associate it with new and better ways to live in areas of our lives that are seemingly unrelated to the event.

    What makes us humans so powerful in controlling and changing our environment and lives is the ability to make much out of a random event, and to selectively relate ans associate it to some aspect of our lives we wish a solution for.

    SERENDIPITY'S FIELD OF SUCCESS

    Of course, the opportunity of the cracked rock in how it can be to your benefit to cut up a fish is different from believing the cracked rock cut your finger was a warning that your wife would end up being eaten by a jaguar a week later, or that you are now the chosen of some supernatural being.

    Unfortunately, humans tend to do this too. Some coincidence occurs in their lives and they make it out to be some sign of the heavens, either as some punishment or as some reward. They cannot believe or recognize it was random because of its impact, nor do they recognize how much they themselves is responsible for it. 

    Both critics and querents of Tarot see it as a divination system that will tell people how, what and when precisely of the future. Any honest Tarot reader, whether they have religious beliefs or not, will explain that is what Tarot cards cannot do. Most Tarot readers roll their eyes at such requests. If you ask a "when will love appear in my life," you won't get a date on which some dark tall stranger called Jack will strut into your life by accident in the supermarket as an answer, but ideas on how it is that you do not have love in your life at present and what you can do about it.

    Tarot cards are not to be used for divination purposes, but to help people understand their lives, to gain insight and find a solution via the serendipity process, where the querent selectively relates the random chosen meanings to how it can benefit their lives. They do say something about the past, present and possible future, but not in a manner other than "what is the possible impact?"


    CONCLUSION

    Critics and believers in the divine will argue that if Tarot is truly a random process with cards having imprecise meanings, then the same question could be answered with other randomly chosen cards with other imprecise meanings. And I say "exactly!". However, they make the mistake to then conclude this makes Tarot a lie, meaningless and incorrect. Well, it reveals a truth, has value and will be correct, because of the serendipity and the querent relating the useful information to where it benefits him or her, as long as it is used to gain ideas, insight and understanding in yourself.


    * sometimes the animal is said to be a mule instead of a camel
    ** As given by W. S. Lewis, ed., Horace Walpole's Correspondence, Yale edition, in the book by Theodore G. Remer, ed.: Serendipity and the Three Princes, from the Peregrinaggio of 1557, Edited, with an Introduction and Notes, by Theodore G. Remer, Preface by W.S. Lewis. University of Oklahoma Press, 1965. LCC 65-10112
    *** here you will find plenty of serendipity examples

    Friday, October 16, 2009

    Isn't that an oxymoron?

    Sometimes people wonder how I can talk about spiritual experiences, and yet call myself an atheist. Sometimes other atheists take it I'm a theist or superstitious person in the closet, while some believers cannot fattom how I translate my spiritual related experiences into remaining an atheist. And yet I know I am not the only one who combines spirituality with a non-religious view.

    Strictly speaking in a dictionary sense, yes, it is an oxymoron. As an atheist relying on empirical evidence, scientific research and logic before accepting a hypotheses as valid, I do not believe I have a soul or spirit in a supernatural way. However, that said, I do work on my own inner well being and growth of both body, ego and higher conscious, and I do that by meditating, focusing the chakra system, having focused on totems, etc. And plenty of those experiences would be considered positive spiritual experiences, except for the fact that I do not use the supernatural as a source or benefit explanation. And it seems superfluous to me to call these activities and experiences by another name just because I do not ascribe them to a supernatural world, when those some activities and experiences would be called "spiritual" when done by someone who has religious beliefs. 

    The spiritual related topics here are insights and experiences about journeys via meditation that involve chakras, kundalini, and totems; about insights on readings and meanings of Tarot and dreams; about sciences such as evolution, cognitive science, physics, the universe; about social views of secular humanism.

    Wishing you an interesting life journey where you will learn much,

    SSR